Strange Effects

Strange effects:

joy amidst darkness and sadness?!

difficult 

to explain, 

to wrap your head 

around 

the inexplicable 

heart effect. 

I think of you. 

I miss you, 

terribly!!

The agonizing pain your departure left, 

Replaced!!

The gaping hole,

Diminished!

Happiness seeps out,

Joy never lost. 

I smile. 

Thoughts of you 

vivid;

shedding tears unequivocally demonstrate:

I miss you!!

But,

the aching pain,

the guttural streams of sadness 

Replaced!!

Waves of joy 

embrace me. 

“How?!” 

I’m asked. 

 “It’s a faith thing,” smiling in reply.

Thoughts mixed with tears 

—by Liz reflecting on the end of a season 2015

You should know,

Better! 

Getting your hopes,

Up? 

Don't!

Things generally workout?

How you hope!!

I've learned:

God always has better, 

even if better means 

alone. 

Will there be 

sadness? 

Yes 

Tears? 

Yes 

Will you be desolate? 

NO! 

Will it be the end? 

NO!

You will

 smile.  

laugh. 

love. 

You will be 

whole!

You, 

depend on GOD! 

The road 

may not 

lead where you thought

But 

the destination,

Better!

Time for 

new dreams,

new aspirations. 

Let dreaming begin!! 

Twenty Years by Liz remembering dad’s early departure 10/2013

Never thought 
this day

would arrive.

I'd actually survive?

It’s, twenty years

Later, 

I'm alive?

Always imagined 
this day.

Sneaking up

quickly!

Emotions, 

raw.

Sadness, 

ever present.

But, twenty years

Later, 

I'm alive?!

Never fathomed

Me?

Full and overflowing?

Joy-

full?

Peace-

full?

Somehow, twenty years

Later, 

I'm alive.

This day,

rarely dreamed.

Thought

I'd die with you.

Life 

STOPPED.

with you.

But, slowly,

I,

chose, 

to,
live.

Look! Twenty years,

Later!

I'm alive!